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"Whenever I feel lonely, I curse you from the bottom of my heart. If you feel guilty at least once before you die, I will praise the God". The you in the above refers to this loner
I haven't posted a word in nearly two months. That is a billion years in blogdom. But these last couple of months have been really bad for me. Actually the last seven months. I didn't know I had it me to hold out so long when faced with such a fierce moral disquiet. It is all right to talk about being a loner, but this stupid world is real and the agonies of existence are all to real. I am no longer what I used to be. The old loner is no more. The external world which I inhabit appears the same. The trees, the weather, the skies and the stars are all the same. But something disappeared form the world and from my soul. Now I realize the true meaning of loneliness. I am beginning to understand why He prayed alone and why He wept. I! Even the word I irritates me now. It reminds me of this useless body. I have started looking forward to the day when whatever is locked up inside this body is finally liberated, be the destination what it may. I cannot care less. Heaven. Hell. Sin. C