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This blue funk is going to last longer than I thought. I just cannot find the energy. I mean, I am Zapped. And so tired. I guess one does get sick of things eventually. Writing just this much leaves me almost physically sick ! Maybe I will be able to return. Maybe I can write, some time

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Anonymous said…
it's not as bad as it feels - i've been there. the way i found out of my years of misery was to start exercising - every morning at 6am. away went the constant insomnia. away went the constant energy-less-ness, and eventually, the depression followed. good luck to you, and keep your head up.

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