Detachment is Forgivenss. Really !! Wow. That is news. More on this later.
Pondering on the reason for one's existence is hardly the sort of thing one ought to be doing these days. But, there being nothing really worthwhile about life, about being alive, or even about feeling alive, this is just the kind of futile occupation that appeals to loner's of my sort. So here I am, by my favourite watering hole, listening to the silence of eons. Maybe I am weird, like some nice people have kindly pointed out. What they have not been able to point out though, is the reason for my weirdness or anybody elses weirdness. I guess, sitting by all by oneself, by the side of a sullen lake is weird. Fine. So I am a weird loner. Thank you very much. That is what loners are ! Anyway, I haven't posted anything at all for a long time. Even my best friends seem to have given up on me. It is tough being a loner. It is tougher being a weird loner.
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No sweetheart, you cannot sleep for a month and then wake up to a new world. Things would still be the same. All the drudgery, all the sickening violence all the meaningless noises of life would still be there.
So that is not the solution. You are a brave girl. But after reading your blog, the last few entries in particular, I feel you need a break. Can you equate sleep with a break and go away on a vacation, a much deserved vacation? That might help.
Be happy again, rain. Life is not infinite. There are limits to what we can do just as there are limits to what we can endure. You are a friendly person, and I am sure you can be happy. In spite of reality.
As a member of the loner's club, you are aware that reality has this sick habit of poking its nose into a person's life for no good reason. That can't be helped.
All that apart, rain, thanks for commenting again. I kind of missed you, you know.
Thank you for understanding and for your support! I greatly appreciate the shoulder you've given me. When I read your comment, it warmed my heart. Yes, I do need a vaction. I have one scheduled in July, but nowhere to go.
When I went to the movies with Sarah and Krista, I actually remembered (for a bit) what it felt like to go out and have fun.
I am trying to be happy again. It's so hard though, but I guess I have to keep trying, or try another medication. LOL
Thank you for being there for me. I'm always here for you. It's too bad you don't live in the States.
Be careful out there.